ARR 1988 - Flipbook - Page 108
The seal barks and disappears
Silently, I curse it.
I don't want to be a part of death. I want to run from it and hide and
pretend it never happens.
Like the rest of the world.
She drifts away.
A tiny yellow dot on the horizon.
At the wedding, some of them actually threw rice.
You're not supposed to.
Birds come, they eat too much rice, it expands, their stomachs explode.
She is just disappearing in the mist when I take out the gun.
I fire. A miss.
I fire again.
She goes down much too quickly.
A rose floats to China.
I change my shoes and clothes before getting into the car.
The old ones I soak in gasoline and bum on the spot.
We bought this car near Venice Beach the year we were married.
On a whim.
She had always wanted a white Ferrari.
It starts up just like it did that day.
With a vengeance.
Randolph Hollinger
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